My thoughts

I have traveled so many different countries when i was young ,thanks to my dad who is obsessed with treveling ,so I have many different views about the world and also I spend  a lot of time wondering about world and me.
Except Korea, America is the most coolest place on this planet, I think that is why I decided to living in America.

My dad always used to say , I was born to live in America.
ha ha  , I still doesn`t get that jock because I can`t see any relevant between me and the US, let just consider it as my dad's dreathful jokes (I have to bear this every day lol Jk,i love my dad's jokes more than anything in this world and im sure im gonna so miss it).

Before I came here , I thought my English was super good .
but things had turned out in a totall opposite way,  after I arrived in America.....even the 5 year old kids can speak better than me(i was devastated) .
It truly  broke down my self-esteem and now it is dysfunctional :( .

So it makes me wondered ,it is quiet strange that each year Korea and japan spend tens of billions of dollars respectively on English Education but majority of them struggle to communicate in English at the most basic level, of course it is natural ,things might not come out 100% as you may have hoped, and I fully understand that studying  foreign languages are tough and required a huge amount of effort and time.

but what I genuinely wants to say is bassless part of Korean`s English educational system has to be changed in a more effectual way.

Speak as a Korean student, these days many students are losing Goals about why they have to study English .
but the truth of the maatter is, English obsesstion in korea is getting higher and higher and the age of  learning English is getting lower and lower.

so, In the end, they study English for only assessment purpose, to get a certain grades, it simply become an assessment tool just to show their academic performance, nothing more .
it breaks my heart ,they are so many teenagers  just waisting their time forced to study English by their parents.
so it is quiet obvious that most of them are unhappy and losing their academic passion. and one of my middle school class mate(he was a boy and his name was 조현철) said "i dont like studying and everybody in this room hate studying but we are studying for our better futures and our better life, so it is ok to unhappy in teenager , Because, I will be unhappy in the future if I am happy now " and it makes me startled in my theory we should always live each day happily as if it were our last , we don`t know when we will die so our life is insecure but on the other hand that is the best thing about life cause it is unpredictable...but the thing is though ,they don`t have any choice but to study because that`s what people do and they think they should do it too to catch up them ,unlike most American kids Korean students don`t have much choices, so that`s why my parents decided to immigrate to America because the more young age  would be better for them to assimilate into the general society of America.

As you can see , the inner side of me is very complex and full of  wonder.
it bothers me a little most of the time because, it makes me depressed..
I don`t know how many people are there would possibly thinking just like me .
 I always found life is boring until i met someone and now it is ended but I feel much better and energetic than before but don`t you dare think life is boring like I did ,because life gives us a pleasure in an unexpected way and this world is still a good place to live in my personal opinion.

In Korea, many students generally studying just in order to get in to a good college, earn lots of money and get married and die that is the life most people dreamed of but I found this life would be so boring and meaningless(just like peter pen) and this is when i fully understand about peter pan lol because that is what all peoples do and want to be generally.
well I cant dare deny that this life is  amazing and cool but I don`t want to live in  that kinds of obvious planed life , I want to spice up my life in a little strange and pretty much abnormal
I haven`t find it yet but I will always seeking the life that i have always dreamed of :)

Go to the American church as an Asian

Now , I'm going to write about one of my horror experiences .
It was truly scary and I learned a lot about America thought this experience(yes, I'm going to leave it as an experience,it means I'll never go to that church never again!!).

Yesterday, I woke up at 5am.
Because I was so nervous ...Well technically, I'm not allowed to wake up that hour ( I hate this rule just because I live under my parents roof doesn't mean I have to do everything what they ordered me! I'm not a robot!!):

Anyway, so I tried to sleep more but the idea that I go to American church and meat American teenagers today keeps bothering me.
So I decided to study English before I go to church, because I don't want to be that dumb foreigner .

I listened my favorite audio book called "princess diary" and try to read some newspaper for kids lol but the only thing I can see from the newspaper was some pictures of teenagers, they look really friendly and nice.

Anyway so I pictured myself  hang out with that beautiful creatures and be good friends with them..
But that was just my imagination.
I'll tell you why it is later ,because I have to keep going .

As soon as my mom informed me that it is 8, I hurried got out of bed and took a long shower lol because I always think hydrogen is the key of making good first impression lol .what person in the world wants to make dirty first impression , don't they?.

So I waxed my legs , arms and I even shampooing my hair twice and do some facial yoga while I scrub my self with body cleaner it smells really good! I love it , here are some tips : do some facial yoga before you speak English because it can prevent you from you to bite your tough when you speak.trust me it really works!

After my shower is done I moistured my body with aveeno and get dressed.
And let me tell you something if I don't spray perfume before I go outside that person is may not me it must be my clone or something.

And now let's get in to the horror story.

/Warning for people who have an America dream/(I don't want to wake you up keep dreaming~)

Church was supposed to start at 10am but me and my quick tempered dad arrived at church at 9:10 (my mom was still sleeping lol lazy mom , it is always strange that even though my parents are such a too different type person but they hardly fight,so weird,aren't it?)

When we arrived at church there was only few people and they all had a queer look on their face like why they come here so early or why they didn't go to Asian church.

I was quiet intimidated by them because their face look so cold and not smiling ,but on the other hand my dad was smiling and say good morning to everyone and everyone was smile back at us and said good morning  so I felt so proud of my dad and  safe.

While my dad and I walking around the church I felt so nervous and I want to be fashionably late, you know like Cinderella lol (JK) :')
So, I told him ,I want to eat some frozen yogurt so we go to golden spoon and had some  delicious yogurt , mine was peanut butter yogurt with caramel chocolate syrup on it and I dad ate mango yogurt with blueberry syrup on it .mine was much delicious hee hee ):')(I'm addicted to frozen yogurt these days XD)
As we go back to church , it was only 9:50am still ten minutes left .....But my dad made me to go to the youth center and told the minister to introduce me to people and disappear and now my dad is gone and I am stand infrond of these colorful people (I'm not being racist,dont get me wrong, but it is true).
As he introduce me to other teenagers they all made some awkward fake smile and say hi~Susie
I just wanted to go home :( and slipt delectly in to my bed and sleep, because I felt so tired at that moment and i don't have enough energy to smile and pretending im ok, as I am sick and tired of these hiding myslef ,i finally realize i what im just saying i was like Hi!nicet meet ya( MINE WAS A FAKE SMILE TOO) and ask the minister can I sleep on the couch for 10minutes and they all laughing like I'm crazy but I was really tired and my eyes was kept closing every second.
As soon as the minister found out I'm serious, he let me lie down one the couch and give me a blanket It was so nice of him but as I am lying on the couch, I am not sleepy anymore but I pretended I'm fell a sleep .
And i instantly found out American teenagers are not noisy as I thought they would be and they all looking at their phones and playing games or texting...it was so strange and it brake all my american dreams at that very moment and it makes me feel sad because these american dream is what i been dream of ever since my fist year in kindergarden.

As a brown hair white guy shouted it's time to start, I woke up lazly and site beside the tall blond girl who is a year younger than me but she was nice and cute but very quiet.

I hate people treats me like I can't speak English ....I felt so isolated .
Boys was little loud and noisy but very funny , hilarious and very friendly to me but the problem was a girls.

I was the only Asian teenager in that church so I felt lonely and awkward and most of all girls are really quiet and not funny they don't talk to each other a lot not like Korean girls who are really talkative .
All of them was really tall so I was like a little baby in that giant hell .
And their facial expressions , body languages and their interests all of them was  different from Korea ...
SO I can't guess what are they thinking about and how to act in certain situation.I HOPE SOMEBODY COULD TEACH ME :*(

 Anyway I KNOW THIS IS JUST A STARTING!!

My life in America as a reckless foreign student

Hi guys! My name is Susie and I am form Korea .  (please, don't ask me whether I am north or south , I am from south!).

Sorry for using exclamation marks so excessively :')
 I'm not that yelling kind of person but I'm just  exciting about  making my own blog for the first time !( it is one of  my buket lists.)

Well , I can't deny the fact that majority of  Korean students have  "American Dream " and so did I .
But it turns out there is nothing to be dreamed of .
first of all there are a lot of racist in the U.S and they think aisans are ugly and inferrior and most of them is so self centered , it is sometimes good and assertive(in a good way)but it looks cocky.



Now , it's time to write about differences between American teenagers and Korean teenagers.
Basically , the majority of  both of them is very similar but here are some  differences .


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Fist, body language .
Yes, American obiously use body languages a lot , but those are really huge too , It is really huge and loud so it sometimes looks like a wild animals , at least to me XP .
Second, America boys try to be cool or bad but Korean boys try to be nice, cute or  feminine.
Third , America girls try to be sexy and energetic but on the other hand Korean girls try to be cute and weak.
Fourth, American prefer tanned skin but Korean prefer white and pure skin .
Fifth, Korean girls like cute and submissive guy but American girls like bad and dominant guy.
Sixth, American teenagers are more honest about their feeling .
Seventh, Korean girls wear very conservatively .
Eighth, American girls don't wear make up that much.
Ninth, American teenager is more out going , more confident about themselves and more assertive
Tenth, eyes contact , Korean people feels awkward about eye contact while they are speaking .
Eleventh, say sorry or excuse me .
Koreans are not used to that. Because we only band our head when we offend someone .

I guess this is it , as you can see there are some few differences between of them  and it startle me every second but it makes me much closer to them.
Just remember whatever we are we are all" human species "
B2b2 see yA
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